Him ....

So i've been thinking about him lately (my ex boyfriend). Its sad that we are no longer together, but its wonderful that we are still friends. He has moved on & Im managing. I just can't help but think about what it would be like if we was still together. I know he is living the "high school dream" great basketball player dating the cheerleader. Sounds cute ehh ? It does. He seem okay about it maybe even contento (spanish word). We talked about our future, but now it looks like those plans with be with other people. Going to Washington we would both go to Georgetown University. He would be the basketball and I would be the love. Oh well im single now and im fine with it. I have my sweetie, but its not that serious a friend who is always there. Somebody that keeps me smiling. Even though me and him don't see each other or talk that much he knows I will always have his back and love him. He cracked my heart and made me look at guys and life differently, but he also gave me a new hope and new attitude. And I thank him for that.

Connecticut

Today we all heard about the shooting in Connecticut & those young children who lost their lives. 26 people killed & 20 children. If I could ask Adam (the shooter) anything it would be why a elementary school? Any school shooting is horrific but these children range from 5-10 really? Innocent kids who just wanted to go to school, they didn't know today would be the last time they seen their parent, they didn't know it would be the last time they seen daylight. But nobody can answer that question no telling what kind of childhood Adam had & what kind of demons he faced day to day. My heart goes out to the families, Lord knows they will need love & support. It has been a day we as a nation will never forget. I just hope & pray we don't have to relive this day. I also hope that one day those kids have peace & don't turn out & relive the horrible thing they seen today. All we can do is pray.

Are YOU Happy?

Lord jesus if we got mad ab every little thing we would all be dead from high blood pressure & heart failure. I honestly trust no one, not even those who I am close to. My experience with people(teenagers) is not good, we talk about each other, putting one another down. So I don't feel the need to hold my tongue or feel bad about anything I say or repeat. If you don't want it repeated don't tell a soul take it to your grave; only you & God will know. If only we could tell each other whats on our mind. being honest, but there is no such thing in our society today. We judge everybody by "what w heard" or "what we think" not knowing the truth, We all listen, but do we actually hear each other? Do we honestly care ab each others feelings? No, no we don't & society has become doomed & maybe it is jus better to live & do you don't worry ab what goes on in this world & focus on what makes YOU happy.

My New Start

Im so new to this blogging thing, never pictured myself doing this. Honestly I never pictured myself doing alot of things making it to my junior year. However life has been way more than I expected, learning how to adjust and get use to life as it is, but im still wondering what are we living for ? I wake up go to school talk do work and leave. Learn about things I could careless about and has nothing to do with my future career. Then I realized im jus expanding my knowledge what good is the brain if you Idon't know anything? I look at all this as an overwhelming experience that I'll one day look back on and say "damn I enjoyed my high school years", but mmh then again I doubt that. Who knows life is always throwing me curve balls maybe I'll hit a home run sooner or later